Memories, how they linger.

It was one very long month ago that my precious husband breathed his last breath here on earth.

Today, I pat his pillow and pray for strength to face another day without his loving arms wrapped around me. In the deepest trials, he assured me, “Susie, God has this. It will be okay.”

I know that, but I sure would like to hear him say it just one more time!

God’s Word has been such a comfort to me. Our Father’s Love is boundless. Click here to check out these great scriptures.

Life is hard when you lose a loved one. When it is a spouse, every part of your life changes. I don’t like checking “widowed” on all these papers. I don’t like filling my own gas tank; carrying in the groceries, going to the mailbox, emptying the trash, making decisions all by myself.

But the love of friends and family keeps me going. God blessed us with four beautiful children. I am so thankful.  Each did their part in caring for Russell and me in his final hours. Our daughters call often to see what I need, to share memories, to encourage. The boys are coming again this week to fix stuff around here for me.

I’m overwhelmed at the floral tributes, cards, calls, and monetary gifts given to Dallas County SBA Missions and Gideon Bibles in his memory. Literally from coast to coast I am getting comments of how his life has been an influence on others. Beautiful memories; such immeasurable blessings.

All this is good. However, right now I sure would like to have one more great big hug. Lunch is not the same without him wrapping his arms around me and blessing the meal. Going to Woods without his walking while I shop is lonely. And, I don’t know what to buy…I don’t need all that stuff he liked; not sure what I even prefer to eat.

Visiting churches each week is both uplifting and very lonely.  I miss his hand patting mine; his affirming smile; how he showed his love for Jesus and for others. I went to revival last night; I missed hearing his comments on the great message and fellowship. Our DCASB Annual meeting is tomorrow; he should be there to give his report and encourage our pastors!.

Truth is, we have an entire community of “suddenly single” individuals trying to find their way in a new and different world. Not all share the same needs, but each long for someone to hold their hand and say it will be okay. Please pray for us as we seek God’s will in our lives individually, and in our community as a whole. The need is great for some support groups. Russell and I had talked since last Christmas about the need in our association and what God would have us do.

And, as you read this, consider your own family. Love them. Pray for them. Hold them close. Trust God to work in their lives as you give them over to Him.

Never miss an opportunity to say “I love you,” or “I am sorry.” And, drop me a note anytime.

Hugs,

If you have been involved in a support group or know of some good bereavement materials, please leave me a message at the end of this article. Thanks for caring.